tarkis's Diaryland Diary

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2012-04-29 - what will be
2012-04-28 - It all changed
2011-08-18 - just time passing
2011-08-18 - just time passing
2011-01-02 - Short Synapses of my life - NOW
2009-09-30 - this is just the beginning
2009-08-05 - a great wedding indeed
2009-08-04 - the circle of life
2008-03-01 - Goodby
2008-02-12 - blessings
2008-01-31 - gone and back... in a twinkling
2008-01-23 - and so I laugh because I am not so sure what I am meant to do
2008-01-22 - even in the bitter cold
2008-01-21 - it didn't take much to take me back to that place I must not go to
2007-12-30 - and time began
2007-12-20 - what is making the difference?
2007-12-09 - in just a moment everything changes
2007-11-28 - the kid's OK
2007-11-26 - It is the season...
2007-11-16 - Not always what it seems
2007-11-01 - maybe a man can save the day... or ruin it trying
2007-10-31 - My kids the best
2007-10-28 - is that a curve in my path
2007-10-19 - and another year passes
2007-10-18 - Thought for today and for tomorrow and tomorrow and tomorrow....
2007-10-04 - always much to laugh about
2007-09-21 - some days are like that
2007-09-19 - what is it...da or de.. hmmm
2007-09-11 - I remember - I accept
2007-09-07 - so it is to be a sleepy Friday
2007-09-04 - my prayer to creation
2007-08-18 - life and death
2007-08-04 - it will be ok - it always is
2007-08-01 - merreily we skip along for whatever else is there to do
2007-07-30 - and the lone bird sang his story
2007-07-13 - it is as if there is more at play here
2007-07-03 - am I the haunter of the night?
2007-06-29 - what is it with Cilantro?
2007-06-13 - did it feel like home?
2007-05-23 - what goes on in the night
2007-05-21 - just another day
2007-05-15 - but the hands win.
2007-05-09 - and now... one last turn around the circle
2007-04-26 - now that I can breathe some fresher air...
2007-04-18 - it is done
2007-04-14 - It was a day to smile about
2007-03-18 - walking the path
2007-03-16 - the path is clearer everyday
2007-03-09 - he is safe.
2007-03-08 - he will be fine
2007-03-05 - but the reliving was wonderful - if only for the moment
2007-03-03 - the kid wowed em, yes he did
2007-03-01 - laugh fool laugh.. it may be all you have
2007-02-28 - and morning wakes
2007-02-26 - just a peaceful easy type morning as the snow gently falls
2007-02-24 - so it has been about him.. hmmmm
2007-02-23 - dreams and real life
2007-02-22 - my only child
2007-02-21 - ya gotta love the bengal
2007-02-20 - it's all about the growing
2007-02-19 - I wish I could be in charge .
2007-02-17 - face the facts once and for all
2007-02-15 - it finished well
2007-02-12 - turning the corner
2007-02-11 - what if
2007-02-05 - Done
2007-02-02 - who are you?
2007-02-01 - just words..
2007-01-31 - do I not speak english?
2007-01-30 - and morning breaks.. or is that mourning breaks
2007-01-29 - colors - they will lead the way
2007-01-25 - they went a tracking, yep they did
2007-01-24 - that wonderful cobblestoned path
2007-01-22 - and
2007-01-17 - in the beginning
2007-01-15 - what to do.. what to do.
2007-01-12 - It is well, I am well, with my soul and my body
2007-01-10 - odd.. just odd or something else?
2007-01-05 - how peaceful it can be
2007-01-04 - and the kid thinks I have stepped out of the realm of reality
2007-01-03 - I need to get my priorities in check
2007-01-01 - Happy New Year
2006-12-31 - new years dilemma
2006-12-26 - just another morning in the circle
2006-12-21 - and a Happy Happy to all
2006-12-14 - I will never grow up.. I won't I won't I won't.
2006-12-13 - time to get back to what I know works
2006-12-12 - when the wheel turns.. WOW
2006-12-11 - another dance is coming soon
2006-12-07 - this too will pass
2006-12-04 - perhaps signs of things to come?
2006-12-03 - a day to be thankful for
2006-11-30 - thanks for the day
2006-11-24 - how long shall I wait.
2006-11-22 - and I am as
2006-11-20 - as I float in the clouds
2006-11-16 - and so thank you
2006-11-16 - what is this thing called sleep
2006-11-15 - it will take a few walks in my forest... hunters beware.. I will be out there.
2006-11-10 - it is morning
2006-11-09 - the sadness of loss
2006-11-08 - at least I tried.
2006-11-07 - I did .. yep... I did.
2006-11-06 - candy & kids.. when is too much.
2006-11-03 - sometimes it is all about sitting back and letting it come to you
2006-11-02 - smile.. the world needs it
2006-11-01 - some days are like that
2006-10-31 - all roads lead home
2006-10-30 - and here we go.
2006-10-25 - don't look back... NEVER
2006-10-24 - wanting and knowing that is exactly where my problems arise
2006-10-22 - just some musings to occupy some of me anyway.
2006-10-19 - could we all be that average
2006-10-18 - and blessings abound while on the cobbled path
2006-10-16 - lazily we skip along, or is it merrily we roll along.. or did any of it matter.
2006-10-16 - finally we can breathe
2006-10-02 - is the aloneness getting to me now.... finally.
2006-10-01 - this day is the first day of the rest of my life.
2006-09-30 - the ups and downs - certainly not karma - just the ebb and flow of life's energy
2006-09-29 - good by boy and dog
2006-09-28 - sometimes it is about doing nothing
2006-09-27 - spiders bringing gifts
2006-09-26 - as clumsy as I am.. I didn't stumble this morning
2006-09-25 - the pregnancy of love, yep as daylight approaches.. give it birth
2006-09-24 - another moment
2006-09-21 - if they only knew
2006-09-20 - the best things in life, we may already have
2006-09-19 - is it done yet? are we there yet?
2006-09-17 - what if I want my lemonade sweeter?
2006-09-16 - and the tires of the bus go round and round
2006-09-09 - and so it begins.. again
2006-09-08 - once again.. with gratitude
2006-09-07 - helter skelter soul
2006-09-06 - just a short jog down an old familiar path
2006-09-05 - what god would say.....
2006-09-04 - the answer will come
2006-08-30 - just a journey given.. I am blessed
2006-08-29 - it isn't always sunshine and irises
2006-08-28 - and the wheel turns yet again... for some
2006-08-27 - I can do it myself ... I can, I can, I can.
2006-08-25 - None of it... not even....
2006-08-23 - just a crap shoot, ya think?
2006-08-22 - I'll get that critter yet
2006-08-21 - I am I am I am I am
2006-08-17 - the circle of laughter
2006-08-16 - and I still do not know
2006-08-14 - busy is as busy does
2006-08-11 - Run Bucky Run
2006-08-10 - Choices
2006-08-09 - progression - yurts and log cabins
2006-08-06 - how is it????
2006-08-06 - it is time.. yes, it is time
2006-08-04 - I learned how to play the game
2006-08-03 - just a fat fig's fart
2006-08-02 - I do not want different
2006-08-01 - the dance of the ins and outs
2006-07-31 - teapots and river stones - child of my heart
2006-07-30 - questions of the day
2006-07-29 - and so it begins
2006-07-28 - is it all good??? it is friday, after all
2006-07-25 - another path? just when I thought I knew
2006-07-24 - life. death. life. death. life. death. life.
2006-07-22 - inner calm as laughter led the way
2006-07-21 - sometimes it is about others
2006-07-20 - So he explained - it will all fall in place
2006-07-17 - it got me thru
2006-07-15 - just another day older
2006-07-12 - just a fact of my life
2006-07-09 - home again in all ways possible
2006-06-30 - adventures await
2006-06-26 - on the other side
2006-06-22 - and the fireflies will lead the way
2006-06-21 - not on a fast train to anywhere
2006-06-20 - a new day is dawning
2006-06-19 - shove deeper
2006-06-18 - take this job and shove it
2006-06-17 - Uruz - Is it the end or the beginning... or both?
2006-06-16 - and on it goes
2006-06-15 - ample blessings abound
2006-06-14 - just another morning of rambling
2006-06-13 - what do I have?
2006-06-12 - Make a decision... it is time.
2006-06-09 - the upswing - cause & effect.
2006-06-08 - am I tired of life? ya think?
2006-06-07 - so am I in love?
2006-06-06 - one job done
2006-06-05 - what will it be?
2006-06-04 - I didn't know.
2006-06-03 - I will get thru
2006-06-02 - changes
2006-06-01 - the pieces finally fit - it was known all the time
2006-06-01 - I will do it myself
2006-05-31 - just a hot day
2006-05-28 - gotta love the day & what you have even if it is not what you want
2006-05-27 - the haunting... maybe
2006-05-24 - I remember
2006-05-23 - It never was, really, it never was.
2006-05-22 - the kid is home and I am happy
2006-05-19 - it just keeps getting better
2006-05-18 - full circle maybe?
2006-05-17 - great energy surrounds me
2006-05-16 - the kid did well.
2006-05-15 - is it enough?
2006-05-14 - his face smiling
2006-05-12 - as time marches past
2006-05-11 - time and forever
2006-05-10 - go to sleep my baby, dream of happier days
2006-05-09 - was that the flip side?
2006-05-08 - just another morning
2006-05-07 - today is the first day of the rest.....
2006-05-05 - reasons for everything
2006-05-04 - the sun warms, the shadows fade
2006-05-03 - is the cause the means or the means the cause
2006-05-02 - but who will jump the fire with me?
2006-05-01 - was it just my aloneness or eating avocado late
2006-04-30 - we only have moments
2006-04-29 - How inconsequential I am
2006-04-28 - need to focus soon
2006-04-27 - it will be a wonderful day - even sunny
2006-04-26 - I need to wake
2006-04-25 - time to dance... and I will
2006-04-20 - and so we will go
2006-04-19 - time for a really good belly laugh - I miss him
2006-04-18 - and who will make the decision
2006-04-17 - pot calling the kettle black
2006-04-16 - when a door closes - does another open?
2006-04-15 - the moment between all or none
2006-04-14 - and fancies of love fill the air.. it is spring in the valley
2006-04-13 - dance, fool dance
2006-04-12 - something or nothing, you decide
2006-04-11 - happiness will never come from another
2006-04-10 - and so the day begins
2006-04-09 - connections.. or not.. maybe.. possibilities?
2006-04-08 - well, the day will be what it is to be
2006-04-07 - truth and lies - does anyone know the dividing line?
2006-04-06 - I need to change my path - maybe I will be able to sleep
2006-04-05 - and I choose door #3
2006-04-04 - I will no longer be their pawn
2006-04-03 - the sister did it, in the condo, with the time clock
2006-04-03 - some days waking up in the aloneness is difficult
2006-04-02 - its a beautiful day in the neighborhood
2006-04-01 - the casino
2006-03-31 - the work week is almost done
2006-03-30 - my son, the biggest tug to my heart
2006-03-29 - if I believe, how long must I wait.
2006-03-28 - this is not a good place to be
2006-03-27 - life is what you make it
2006-03-26 - take me higher please before I remember
2006-03-25 - so I stayed home
2006-03-24 - so know we tax that which should be untaxable
2006-03-23 - what is the nature of the day
2006-03-22 - Manny's back... YEA!!!!!!!
2006-03-21 - just another strange morning
2006-03-20 - and the dreams begin again
2006-03-19 - it was there all the time, religion grabbed onto it
2006-03-18 - does he? does she?
2006-03-17 - Broken Dreams
2006-03-17 - just a perspective.
2006-03-16 - so how is this day starting?
2006-03-15 - so it is to be
2006-03-13 - today is a great day on MY path
2006-03-12 - we are home
2006-03-08 - the old man & white buffalo
2006-03-07 - soon I go to pick up the kid
2006-03-06 - the best will come... not over yet.
2006-03-05 - a day of remembering
2006-03-03 - he was with me last night and I understood
2006-03-02 - is he a keeper????
2006-03-01 - trust by any other name... is not D
2006-02-28 - ok.. so we know where this is going
2006-02-27 - Scarlett Ashley and Rhett, but above all Rhett
2006-02-26 - another day - where is this taking me
2006-02-24 - it is a day to smile
2006-02-23 - complete betrayal.. it was.. was it not?
2006-02-22 - the beginning?
2006-02-21 - I want to dance amidst the colors
2006-02-20 - but was this a lie or a joke?
2006-02-20 - is change on the horizon..
2006-02-19 - am I happy now?
2006-02-18 - where is that blindless passion?
2006-02-17 - soon it will be a whole new me
2006-02-16 - and the healthy me will get healthier
2006-02-15 - some days you should listen
2006-02-15 - or was it just a dream?
2006-02-14 - and... if it is raining it must be brown
2006-02-13 - if I could dance
2006-02-12 - the laugh is on you
2006-02-12 - I slept well last nite
2006-02-11 - strong legs & knees... VERY strong
2006-02-10 - where is this path going
2006-02-09 - what did I mean to say?
2006-02-07 - somethings never change
2006-02-01 - just a lost child
2006-01-25 - it is just too hard
2006-01-24 - will thsi be the day?
2006-01-23 - just another dream filled day
2006-01-22 - decisions
2006-01-21 - what a wonderful day to be alive
2006-01-20 - the rate your life quiz
2006-01-20 - I am back , and in love with what is
2006-01-19 - who am I
2006-01-18 - and so the day begins
2006-01-17 - much change is needed
2006-01-16 - Only Time
2006-01-15 - and if I died,, who would know
2006-01-13 - Don't go back there- even for a day
2006-01-12 - I am alive - and glad for it
2006-01-10 - I WILL get healthy.. and just maybe wise
2006-01-09 - she didn't know my name
2006-01-08 - my son has family
2006-01-07 - just a bit more to convince
2006-01-06 - My son is leaving
2006-01-05 - Betrayal
2006-01-04 - I don't want to be alone
2006-01-02 - almost there.
2006-01-01 - a new start
2005-12-31 - another damn year ends
2005-12-30 - and so I was depressed
2005-12-29 - the picture
2005-12-28 - not fair.. not fair at all
2005-12-24 - relationships
2005-12-23 - what does the future hold?
2005-12-22 - finally the anger
2005-12-21 - it is the time
2005-12-19 - Patch Work life
2005-12-16 - understanding
2005-12-15 - just a few
2005-12-14 - daniel
2005-12-13 - stepping lightly
2005-12-12 - today
2005-12-10 - it is ok
2005-12-09 - the Count your blessings land
2005-12-08 - another day
2005-12-07 - so the kid is distancing himself from me
2005-12-06 - I understand.. at last.
2005-12-05 - just another monday
2005-12-04 - holy silence
2005-11-29 - -
2005-11-28 - Priorities
2005-11-26 - back on MY path
2005-11-23 - everything changes - just another turn of the wheel
2005-11-22 - a day
2005-11-22 - -
2005-11-21 - just another day
2005-11-20 - today
2005-11-19 - hate this dating game
2005-11-18 - nice night
2005-11-17 - worm holes
2005-11-16 - this peace
2005-11-15 - on the flip side now
2005-11-14 - here we go again
2005-11-13 - what's this about
2005-11-12 - the evangelist
2005-11-11 - too much of the other sided, methinks
2005-11-10 - optimistic - weekend coming
2005-11-09 - it is the start
2005-11-08 - a day
2005-11-07 - just another moment
2005-11-06 - a few good days
2005-11-06 - who am i?
2005-11-05 - a wonderful day
2005-11-04 - Finally it is friday
2005-11-03 - just a moment
2005-11-02 - again or always
2005-11-01 - the beginning
2005-10-31 - the start
2005-10-30 - changes
2005-10-29 - let's try this again
2005-10-29 - deleted
2005-10-28 - an early walk
2005-10-27 - my aloneness is alright
2005-10-26 - The deer
2005-10-25 - the kid will sing at a city near me
2005-10-24 - and where is it taking me too.. and how
2005-10-23 - once again it is the crying of the childre
2005-10-22 - I don't like today
2005-10-21 - again today
2005-10-20 - another day
2005-10-19 - just thoughts
2005-10-18 - but I know
2005-10-17 - the white buffalo
2005-10-13 - nothing but dreams
2005-10-12 - laughter
2005-10-11 - a morning
2005-10-10 - an autumn day
2005-10-09 - it will be just as it is suppose to be.
2005-10-08 - what a difference a day makes.
2005-10-07 - what happened?
2005-10-06 - and the door revealed yet another
2005-10-05 - and a day
2005-10-04 - the kid will grow up
2005-10-03 - I must know who I am
2005-10-02 - my ancient ones adventure
2005-09-30 - almost the weekend
2005-09-29 - the ancient ones
2005-09-28 - Somedays
2005-09-27 - and the morning starts
2005-09-26 - in my creation
2005-09-23 - where did you go?
2005-09-22 - I am tired
2005-09-21 - morning
2005-09-20 - my son, the atheist
2005-09-19 - another weekend.
2005-09-17 - dating... what a pain
2005-09-16 - blessed be
2005-09-15 - what a day
2005-09-14 - some days are like that
2005-09-13 - it is the time
2005-09-12 - it will happen - I will allow it
2005-09-12 - the dream... who is that man?
2005-09-12 - the dream... who is that man?
2005-09-11 - does he exist.. for me?
2005-09-11 - does he exist.. for me?
2005-09-10 - vanilla & caresses
2005-09-09 - my son makes me proud
2005-09-08 - My son
2005-09-04 - just a day.. just another 24 hours
2005-09-03 - oh what to do
2005-09-02 - He asked me
2005-09-02 - my friend
2005-09-01 - me
2005-08-31 - it wasn't
2005-08-30 - a sad day
2005-08-29 - today
2005-08-28 - just a note of my life
2005-08-26 - alzheimer & day dreams
2005-08-25 - another day
2005-08-23 - a messed up mind
2005-08-22 - he is doing well.
2005-08-18 - the kid bought soem clothes
2005-08-17 - he will be leaving - can't change that
2005-08-15 - just a few days left
2005-08-12 - epiphanys in our lives
2005-08-10 - just a day again
2005-08-09 - I am fine
2005-07-29 - and then what?
2005-07-22 - a little bit of a rest
2005-07-21 - today I am in love
2005-07-20 - Bad day
2005-07-19 - don't you understand?
2005-07-18 - I am frightened once again
2005-07-17 - another weekend day
2005-07-16 - where is he now?
2005-07-15 - so it is my b-day
2005-07-14 - nice morning
2005-07-13 - just another day
2005-07-12 - where is the old path
2005-07-11 - can i do it?
2005-07-11 - can i do it?
2005-07-10 - life is looking more & more
2005-07-09 - good day
2005-07-08 - he called again
2005-07-07 - another path taken
2005-07-06 - ok so I miss him still
2005-07-05 - colors of life - they are getting closer
2005-07-04 - my sister
2005-07-01 - another hop along the path
2005-06-30 - another hop down my path, I suspect
2005-06-29 - so it is to be
2005-06-27 - it is over
2005-06-23 - another day
2005-06-22 - the days are going by fast
2005-06-21 - can it happen again?
2005-06-20 - unicorns & dragons
2005-06-19 - just thoughts this morning
2005-06-18 - the grant guy called
2005-06-16 - busy time.. just a busy time
2005-06-15 - and who am I floating in today
2005-06-14 - green will heal
2005-06-13 - just a slow down.. nothing to get anxious about
2005-06-11 - thank the gods for another day
2005-06-10 - just a bird's call apart
2005-06-10 - the gods be with me
2005-06-09 - another day
2005-06-08 - too much to do.. ok.. so it got better
2005-06-07 - Love is forgiveness
2005-06-06 - will I be able to get it together again
2005-06-05 - what does it mean?
2005-06-04 - did you think, maybe?
2005-06-03 - changes are upon us
2005-06-02 - so now what?
2005-05-31 - difficult day
2005-05-30 - it will be a good day
2005-05-29 - another day
2005-05-28 - he is my calm in the storm
2005-05-27 - just a slice of life
2005-05-26 - who was it?
2005-05-26 - another sunny day
2005-05-25 - last night he was here
2005-05-23 - another day.. promises yet to come
2005-05-21 - a confusing Saturday
2005-05-20 - this too will pass
2005-05-19 - just another 24 hours
2005-05-17 - the kid is growing up
2005-05-16 - sometimes it happens
2005-05-15 - Cradle time
2005-05-14 - I moved ahead
2005-05-13 - truth - an illusion of emotion
2005-05-12 - and I wonder
2005-05-11 - Sometimes the gifts are simple
2005-05-09 - Just another Mother's Day
2005-05-06 - Is it done? Is it finally done?
2005-05-04 - just another day
2005-05-03 - Just settling matters
2005-05-02 - what happened to my night.
2005-04-28 - Just another day on my path
2005-04-27 - My crow
2005-04-27 - does it matter?
2005-04-26 - just another day
2005-04-25 - today another virus
2005-04-24 - a new white day
2005-04-21 - Why am i not surprised
2005-04-20 - we are back
2005-04-07 - as in the beginning
2005-03-18 - so what's up?
2005-03-16 - a place to live
2005-03-15 - I am healing
2005-03-13 - I love this man.. still
2005-03-12 - someday
2005-03-11 - -
2005-03-10 - changes
2005-03-08 - it will be as it is to be
2005-03-07 - today I will say NO
2005-03-05 - alone
2005-03-04 - No More
2005-03-03 - I guess I still miss him
2005-03-03 - I guess I still miss him
2005-03-01 - I will heal
2005-03-01 - I will heal
2005-02-24 - she lives
2005-02-18 - being sick.. yucks!
2005-02-17 - need to get going ...
2005-02-16 - changes must be made
2005-02-15 - the kid made a good decision
2005-02-14 - I love this man... still
2005-02-14 - I love this man... still
2005-02-12 - night terrors again
2005-02-11 - what's up?
2005-02-10 - a wonderful life - if only in my dreams
2005-02-09 - changes
2005-02-08 - Turning of the wheel
2005-02-07 - hmmmm
2005-02-07 - about nothing
2005-02-06 - why?
2005-02-01 - Symbolic
2005-01-30 - the crucible
2005-01-29 - Steps
2005-01-27 - always the whys
2005-01-26 - I was happy last year at this time
2005-01-23 - why did he have to say he would call
2005-01-21 - nose bleeds? Hmmmm
2005-01-18 - he called
2005-01-16 - how do I end it
2005-01-15 - death of a computer
2005-01-15 - death of a computer
2005-01-14 - today is just a day
2005-01-13 - my path
2005-01-12 - get a grip
2005-01-11 - where do I go?
2005-01-10 - we are not alone
2005-01-09 - just another morning
2005-01-08 - I am or will be.. alright!
2005-01-07 - optimistic
2005-01-06 - eventually it will resolve itself
2005-01-06 - not ready
2005-01-04 - was it for me?
2005-01-01 - woe is in their future
2005-01-01 - Done
2004-12-31 - I almost forgot
2004-12-30 - too much
2004-12-30 - too much
2004-12-30 - too much
2004-12-30 - My son's birth
2004-12-27 - I forgot.
2004-12-26 - get it right
2004-12-23 - just get thru
2004-12-19 - it will be alright.
2004-12-18 - the separation was necessary
2004-12-17 - who cares
2004-12-16 - who is this connection with?
2004-12-15 - it is done
2004-12-14 - honesty
2004-12-13 - the gods speak =- will I listen?
2004-12-12 - take this from me
2004-12-10 - ways of the unknown - heal me please
2004-12-09 - this is too hard
2004-12-06 - no tears falling now
2004-12-05 - acceptance
2004-12-04 - thank you gods for the moment
2004-12-03 - I am tired - it has been a long battle
2004-12-02 - another one bites the dust
2004-11-30 - only time will tell
2004-11-29 - hope.. today's gift from the gods
2004-11-25 - is that all I need?
2004-11-23 - He is my disease
2004-11-21 - I have to look at today
2004-11-20 - the kid did well
2004-11-18 - I remembered.. before it was too late
2004-11-18 - I remembered.. before it was too late
2004-11-17 - Insight - yet have you failed me with dan
2004-11-16 - are the gods laughing at me?
2004-11-15 - lie sucks
2004-11-13 - is he my past .. present .. or future?
2004-11-12 - Is it time
2004-11-11 - James will be fine
2004-11-10 - I will not be their victim
2004-11-09 - a day in my life
2004-11-08 - I ma tired
2004-11-07 - what I will do
2004-11-06 - so he is sick..
2004-11-05 - not sure how to move on
2004-11-04 - Sadly for him
2004-11-03 - dead inside
2004-11-02 - what is happening
2004-11-01 - Johnny's back
2004-10-31 - I went home last night
2004-10-25 - I HATE you Dan.. I do.. i hate you.
2004-10-14 - getting better
2004-10-11 - my life today
2004-10-07 - today.
2004-10-05 - should I start painting again?
2004-10-04 - another monday morning
2004-10-03 - I ma back
2004-09-27 - I will go on with my life
2004-09-23 - why?
2004-09-14 - I'm out of this place... finally
2004-09-13 - things have changed
2004-09-12 - time to stop the dreams
2004-09-11 - just what I think? maybe? false alarm?
2004-09-10 - I miss him.. pver and over..
2004-09-07 - I miss you dan
2004-09-05 - I love him - what do I do?
2004-09-04 - I will survive.. but do I really want to.
2004-09-02 - is michael a healer for me
2004-08-29 - and he's a 33
2004-08-28 - how very presumptuous of me
2004-08-27 - unloveable
2004-08-27 - he lied
2004-08-27 - he lied
2004-08-26 - I need closure
2004-08-25 - just another year
2004-08-24 - he has to understand
2004-08-23 - there are bad people in the world
2004-08-23 - dry your tears.. can't cry over what never was
2004-08-19 - Imiss him.. ok.. I said it.
2004-08-17 - how quickly they grow up
2004-08-16 - and once again we are at this place
2004-08-15 - and what is this critter?
2004-08-14 - sacred trust
2004-08-11 - and he was planning
2004-08-10 - smiling this morning
2004-08-09 - Confusion?
2004-08-08 - -
2004-08-06 - Last week at this time
2004-08-05 - I know what I have to do
2004-08-04 - I don't like today
2004-08-02 - I love this man
2004-07-26 - strange dreams again
2004-07-22 - Changes are in the wind, I fear
2004-07-21 - how incredible is this day
2004-07-20 - let me explain pain
2004-07-18 - dreams of everyday things.... with Dan
2004-07-16 - this too shall pass
2004-07-15 - my birthday
2004-07-09 - I've got to get with the times
2004-07-08 - He makes moving on easier
2004-07-07 - Let me sleep
2004-07-01 - I am so scared
2004-06-26 - so how do I stop?
2004-06-26 - how did he know about the letter?
2004-06-18 - Remember
2004-06-17 - why was I awakened with thoughts of him
2004-06-16 - I wasn't important
2004-06-11 - I am still & always have been - in love
2004-06-09 - I ran
2004-05-21 - and so it is
2004-05-02 - Gods having their fun
2004-04-19 - He's all I ever wanted
2004-03-14 - Bobbi is happy now
2004-03-13 - short update
2004-02-16 - what has happened
2003-12-05 - it has been a long time
2003-12-02 - -
2003-10-27 - and so I am going
2003-10-16 - Everythings OK
2003-10-02 - sometimes I understand but a little
2003-10-01 - and it still hurts
2003-09-29 - me thinks, I know
2003-09-13 - it's time to dance in the shadows
2003-09-10 - her world stopped
2003-09-08 - am I going backwards or towards
2003-09-07 - the kid's disappointed
2003-09-05 - My undoing
2003-09-04 - what am i longing for
2003-09-03 - and today I wait.
2003-09-01 - she
2003-08-31 - update of my life
2003-08-30 - I guess
2003-08-27 - M M Died
2003-08-25 - night terrors, again
2003-08-23 - what I need today.. Peace
2003-08-18 - and it broke
2003-08-18 - I wish today was Saturday
2003-08-17 - 3 wishes & smiling
2003-08-16 - dependancy
2003-08-15 - maybe I do understand
2003-08-14 - why not indeed
2003-08-13 - and sometimes the wheel changes
2003-08-12 - my Yin Yang of life
2003-08-11 - another day of rain is on its way
2003-08-10 - and my hollow flooded for the first time in my life
2003-08-09 - I ma now a white belt w/ black stripe
2003-08-08 - i don't fear the future
2003-08-07 - just another day without him
2003-08-06 - just another cloudy morning
2003-08-05 - Between the Yin Yang of life I will find him
2003-08-04 - and I let the old man come back
2003-08-03 - -
2003-08-01 - In time
2003-07-31 - the me's of me are happy this morning... I think.
2003-07-30 - just another summer day
2003-07-29 - I hate losing entries
2003-07-28 - not sure I like how this week is starting
2003-07-27 - Blackberries and hard work are good for the soul
2003-07-26 - not sure of anything
2003-07-25 - Will her heart ever smile again?
2003-07-24 - another rainy morning
2003-07-23 - and so they are back
2003-07-22 - I will enjoy this night that I have been given
2003-07-21 - so they came back
2003-07-20 - is it limbo or ust I don't give a damn
2003-07-19 - Something is happening
2003-07-18 - karaoke
2003-07-17 - so it's OK
2003-07-16 - just a morning
2003-07-15 - Subjective?
2003-07-14 - the acceptance mode
2003-07-13 - Will I ever understand?
2003-07-12 - am I?
2003-07-11 - I just will not
2003-07-10 - take this cup... please
2003-07-10 - not been a good year
2003-07-09 - Trust??????
2003-07-08 - So I told the truth
2003-07-07 - how long do I have?
2003-07-06 - how much niicer could it be
2003-07-05 - 35 years
2003-07-04 - What have I done?
2003-07-03 - today's the day that the gods have made
2003-07-02 - I'm bacfk.. I think.
2003-06-25 - Not playing with a full deck
2003-06-24 - and here I sit
2003-06-23 - the parts of me do not make up the whole
2003-06-22 - perseverance
2003-06-21 - 24 hours of crap
2003-06-21 - disposable people
2003-06-20 - the start of the weekend
2003-06-19 - just a day
2003-06-18 - ten days and counting
2003-06-17 - I'm so tired
2003-06-16 - Routine
2003-06-15 - the sun shone today.. I ma happy
2003-06-13 - confusion
2003-06-12 - and there he was
2003-06-11 - our connection
2003-06-10 - strange dreams again
2003-06-09 - alone but no longer lonely
2003-06-08 - i'm buying a violin
2003-06-07 - softly falling rain
2003-06-06 - maybe
2003-06-05 - Time to be quiet
2003-06-04 - firsts ... always
2003-06-03 - Because of your age
2003-06-02 - it's just too hard
2003-06-01 - confirmation
2003-05-31 - the wrong door
2003-05-30 - Some things are beyond my understanding
2003-05-29 - One day at a time...
2003-05-28 - last night I was awakened.. and it was good
2003-05-27 - and the gods light shines down on me every once in awhile
2003-05-26 - but it's good to be back to my own bed
2003-05-25 - enforced contemplation
2003-05-20 - it's almost time... is that why the disturbing dreams?
2003-05-19 - I filed a snakes tooth
2003-05-18 - the fact is..
2003-05-17 - a feeling in the air
2003-05-16 - his face... smiling
2003-05-16 - Rainy Day
2003-05-15 - and morning came and I was happy
2003-05-14 - today feels right and I am thankful
2003-05-13 - Mourning
2003-05-12 - i'm frightened
2003-05-11 - where did I get the courage?
2003-05-10 - I finally was able to say goodby
2003-05-09 - the god's gift to me
2003-05-08 - so he had a panic attack
2003-05-07 - he did it again
2003-05-07 - So it's to be a roadtrip.... Yea!!!
2003-05-06 - everything turned awry
2003-05-05 - my palms are tingling
2003-05-04 - Such a Very Sad Forest
2003-05-03 - Can the unknown be known?
2003-05-02 - how to choose the path
2003-05-01 - The joy of ironing
2003-04-30 - Over... with the scent of my perfume
2003-04-29 - the braid of life.. where am I?
2003-04-28 - some mornings are like that
2003-04-27 - they danced in the night
2003-04-26 - don't go beyond where you haven't yet begun
2003-04-25 - so who is he?
2003-04-24 - and I ran
2003-04-23 - i need to find the loop hole
2003-04-23 - just another day
2003-04-22 - I didn't have to test the waters... they tested me
2003-04-21 - happy again
2003-04-20 - it just keeps getting better
2003-04-20 - so it's just another day
2003-04-19 - what is it all about, really?
2003-04-18 - despair has many faces
2003-04-17 - we will not be denied
2003-04-16 - We are just fine
2003-04-15 - She needs to
2003-04-15 - East or West
2003-04-14 - Nothing is as it seems
2003-04-13 - Correct conduct...
2003-04-12 - or is it the sun
2003-04-11 - My nature?
2003-04-10 - Not easy night
2003-04-09 - Thankfulness
2003-04-08 - I understood
2003-04-07 - back in my dreams
2003-04-06 - But is it Len?
2003-04-05 - good morning
2003-04-04 - the set up
2003-04-02 - Magic in the air
2003-04-01 - silly silly me
2003-04-01 - Closure
2003-03-31 - not to be
2003-03-30 - You have never been alone.
2003-03-29 - Know this
2003-03-26 - dilemma
2003-03-22 - the game is over
2003-02-27 - Wonderful morning
2003-02-25 - chance meeting
2003-02-24 - Would he know?
2003-02-23 - I am fine
2003-02-22 - Blue grasses are decieving
2003-02-21 - The greatest adventure
2003-02-20 - Confused
2003-02-19 - and I send
2003-02-18 - am I happy?
2003-02-17 - epiphany?
2003-02-16 - Why?
2003-02-15 - Anticipation
2003-02-14 - my cousin's daughter
2003-02-13 - I feel better
2003-02-12 - Hmmmm
2003-02-10 - Sometimes
2003-02-09 - or is it
2003-02-08 - he called
2003-02-07 - sadness?
2003-02-06 - Have they changed?
2003-02-04 - and it was good
2003-02-03 - and she wished
2003-02-02 - Just a day
2003-02-01 - golden hazelnut and ruby acorn
2003-01-31 - One month
2003-01-30 - Stone Bridge
2003-01-29 - The insights
2003-01-28 - Why
2003-01-28 - and it's enough
2003-01-27 - So...
2003-01-26 - My song and dance man
2003-01-24 - so I said
2003-01-24 - Bad dreams
2003-01-22 - my son is fine
2003-01-21 - Just Gotta have faith
2003-01-20 - Missing my friend
2003-01-20 - Please
2003-01-19 - Morning
2003-01-19 - As Time Goes On
2003-01-18 - small gift of color
2003-01-17 - Too Cold
2003-01-16 - he can't be sick, can he?
2003-01-16 - Is there shelter for me?
2003-01-15 - the sum is better
2003-01-14 - decisions?
2003-01-13 - She was
2003-01-12 - and she left
2003-01-12 - doppelganger
2003-01-11 - Fly away
2003-01-11 - NO MORE
2003-01-10 - the lights
2003-01-09 - Yesterday
2003-01-08 - he was writing my poem
2003-01-07 - So I called
2003-01-06 - another night
2003-01-05 - putting away xmas
2003-01-04 - what is it i need?
2003-01-03 - and where is your heart
2003-01-02 - I Ching
2003-01-01 - and I felt lost