tarkis's Diaryland Diary ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- and she left with arms outstretched, reaching ever higher, touching nothing but air.... she left. and the sun warmed the shell that remained, and the colors nudged the mind that wouldn't think until the heart said enough. and she wrapped her arms around herself to protect unwanted advances. Please don't she said. No she said. And she was silent. Arms dropping to her side, eyes focused within. She left. And her colors took her past their vibrant hues to the place of contrasts, but she saw them not. And music pleaded with her heart, but it had been enough and she stayed silent. So quietly she stayed, motionless against the force of the sadness. Consumed by visions only she could see, songs only she could hear, she was lost. in the distancing herself from the pain she somehow knew would be there if she could find her way back, she had lost who she was. and she was content with that. finally she was content. but the colors said No... the music grew louder... this would not be accepted. She felt the pressure within, struggling against it she weakened. and she cried,, a quiet tearless cry. not noticeable by any... unless you looked at her eyes. finally she cried and was no longer content. and she questioned angrily,,, which was better? why couldn't you leave me be, she screamed to the universe. Why did you come for me? and with the scream she was back. and she smiled, because she knew. She would never be the same again. 7:15 p.m. - 2003-01-12 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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