tarkis's Diaryland Diary ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- decisions? How does she get him out of her mind... She's glad she still can feel him... that is OK...but even when she is not feeling him, he is there... waiting in the shadows of her mind. Or is it that she really doesn't want him to leave her mind. Is she sabotaging her own recovery from him? Her recovery from him... now that may seem like an odd way to put it... but, I guess that is what it is. Does she need the 13 steps?.. Is that how many there are? but he's there... She feels him and he enters her dreams... no longer really hurting... she has accepted he is there. So now what to do? and now the even bigger problem.. who does she take to the dessert theater when she goes to see her son sing and dance? Hmmm... who now, indeed. She could ask the accountant... but that would mean he would meet her son... not a good idea... she doesn't trust him that much yet.. or even know if she wants it to go that far. She could maybe see about her brother's friend.. if she goes to karaoke this week. He knows her son... her son likes him... but she...well, she... not really sure she wants to get into this whole thing... It's not as if he doesn't know the other and so will ask abouut the other and she can't lie... nresolutions and all that.. Now.. there's the person to ask... the other... his birthday is that weekend..hmmmm Ok... let's get real.. not the other....she's not into threesomes.. or... the family friend.. noooo... just couldn't do that.. or maybe her son's dad will come to see the show... that maybe just as scary.. too many conditions,.. I know... her aunt... family... they would love to see his show and she would feel so much better... so it's a decision, you think? Altogether now... yes? well, maybe. We'll see.. I don't know... do I have to make a decision now? 6:06 p.m. - 2003-01-14 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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