tarkis's Diaryland Diary ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- sadness? Sadness seems to permeate every ounce of my being this morning. Sadness for what may occur... for the violence that may be inflicted on all our souls. sadness because i really thought... I really felt that if enough energy was combined we could change the way people thought.. sadness because nothing is ever enough. sadness because I am frightened and so miss my soul's friend more than I have in such a long time. sadness because I do not know. sadness because I do know. sadness because I finally felt what I always knew in some place that I had been missing and sadness because it wasn't real. sadness because I never learned how to move on and now it just hurts. just this sadness this morning... and I have to knock it off. I have to center and find my place.. I have to look around and get energy from the beauty around me... I have to find that beauty... even though... oh, as the sky seems to lighten... I know what my problem is this morning... again... more snow and cold... I miss my sun. I miss.. well, it is better now that I can feel him... my friend.. and since I got all my sadness out on paper... now I will think of him and smile. oh, and I threw my stones... you just gotta smile. 6:11 a.m. - 2003-02-07 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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