tarkis's Diaryland Diary ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- I remember - I accept I remember. Tears flowing for those I did not know.. fear for those I did. It was a day for the unspeakable... at least here. It brought about a change in me... in many I should think. today.. the day of remembrance. and as I give thanks this morning to the source of all.. for much I can't explain... a smile soothes my face. and as tragically infamous as today's date has become.. I also remember it made heroes out of many unknown. It gave an egoistic world a chance to be much more than self involved. it is what happens in the silence of an aftermath that a person's true worth evolves. and as for me... I am fine.. better than before... in these last six years much has changed within me... I have been whittled.. chiseled.. with blood.. sweat and many many tears into a very different person. and looking out my window this morning. a huge bird has landed in my yard.. standing in shock... understanding... it is an eagle... how blessed am I...just when I think it can't get much better than yesterday... an eagle lands in my yard. I have been waiting (not patiently mind you) for my son to make decisions.. I have held my tongue - hoping he was keeping on ocurse... and he called.. Mom...listen and let me know what you think... I have talked with my professor ( Japanese ) and before you say anything .. she thinks I could do it.. I need to make sure I get an A to be accepted in the program.. but I want to go to Japan next summer to study Japanese... and then I plan to go to Law School.... He gave me all his reasons... ending with... and after Law School .. I still want to go on and get my PHD... but at least this will be a start... I smiled and raised my eyes on high.. I just needed to get out of my way and accept... Yes, that will be a start... He said.. thanks Mom.. I love you... gotta go... and as I send my energy out this morning.. I will pick up a stone... and remember.. yesterday's stone was about not doing.. just accepting. 7:04 a.m. - 2007-09-11 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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